Nothing is too difficult for Thee...
listen to this truth ...
you are not alone
God is with you
his mighty angels
will watch over you
there is no place
He can not go ...
trust, He is with you
seek Him ... He will NOT
forsake you.
He will NOT desert you.
He will take your burdens from you.
BELIEVE
The darkness that enshrouds me pulls me down as it increases my anxiety and takes me to a place so desolate that it feels no one has ever taken this path before me and I find myself praying within my own agony that no one ever has or ever will. You are here, I know it ... it's just that I can not feel you right now but I have faith that you are making a way for me to escape this place. I know it as well as I know you exist. My mind races with impossible thoughts, negativity, fear, paranoia, they try to grip me and drag me to the depths but I will not be conquered for they have NO PLACE here for I am a child of God and I will not be entrenched. We will stand in victory together at the end of this trial and you will embrace me and then let me soar as I experience the freedom of joy once again. It's you and me, Lord. It always has been, it always and FOREVER will be.
IF YOU WERE EVER IN A PLACE THAT YOU COULD HAVE AUTHORED THESE WORDS LET ME PRAY FOR YOU, WITH YOU ... I CARE.
Just standing in faith
and waiting on the Lord.
So many of us are
Fear grips me. I can not
think past it, through it, over
or under it. Oh Lord, I
cry out to you ... do not
forsake me.
I do not deserve
your attention Lord. I
have walked a path far
from you ... but I beg of
you Father ... pick me up
dust me off, hug me, love
me FORGIVE ME ...
embrace me, HEAL ME.
I need you in my life ... I need you.
So many things I don't understand.
Take hormones ... I don't get it.
They seem to be a blessing some
days, a curse others. Father, please
balance things out in my body.
"Be with me Lord
I can not live without thee.
I dare not try
to take one step alone
I can not bear
the loads of life unaided ..."
"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound
that saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
was blind, but now I see ..."
Deliver me Lord God, I pray this
so feverently, in Jesus' name.
Amen.
I have forgotten how to pray
I only know I need you
My life is a mess
Please be the glue that will piece
me back together Lord. My faith is in YOU.